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[orphen]

have you ever got the feeling that you have so much to say but you don't have the guts to do so !if so join the club.. i sometimes face problems that ican't solve yet,...i cant tell any one about
sometimes i have the weardest feelings you could think of ..some would think thats pretty silly but i'm serious about it !and ... i guess i'll start ..i hope no one will laugh at me (coz i'm being laughed at all the time)..
have you ever feel soo evil ? ido feel that many times ,i feel that i'm not being hounest to most of the people i know , most important to my self . people think of me as agood guy but i'm not i'm soo evil that i consider my self a divel ! do you know that when my father died i had to fake my sadness ! i really regret saying that but ... that what really happend coz i had no other feelings at that time .. that is just on of many situations that i really feel ashamed of and i can't tell it to someone that i know simply because they'll hate me ...
if you have something that will make me feel better please tell me !!!
Arrious Amegos

[Sarafina]

from ur words i just realize something u didn't realize it urself, u r not devil u r and not an angle as well u r a human that have much feeling than we all ,ok then about the case of ur father its not shameful not to feel sad about ur father's death , ur father is just one human u met in ur life its true that ur father should have something special in our hearts but things r not always normal don't feel evil u r a human think more about ur father and the real reasons that made a gap between u
think positive and u will find all the good parts in ur life
on elast word
DONT WORRY BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAPPPYYYYYY
PEACE

[Wad al-wed]

Hi there orphen i think sarafina covered some good points and i will add some .

orphen when u admited that u have personal problem that is the start for a change ,, people can change .

orphen i can see good signs in ur self,,when u share how u feel with us this is good thing

as sarafina said dont worry be happey

*w

[orphen]

i'm speechless ... idon't know what to say my tears just came out when i read what u 2 wrote ..i have no more to say but you really gave me some hope i hope i am worth it . thanx alot dear Sarafina and dear
Wad al-wed
you know guys i've always thought that humans are evil creatures that walk on 2legs .. i 'll be a liar if i said that this image is totaly changed but now i can say that its not 100% right
THANX ALOT
Arrious Amegos

[Sarafina]

i'm glad , i'm so happy for you life is short to live it nicly keep tring this life

[شمعـــة الــدور]

Dear Orphen,
life is tough but u've got to learn how to overcome the problems in life,, we all feel the same way..
as for ur fathers situation, i know its hard.. sometimes we cry on people we've never met.. but we don't cry on who we know our whole life.. it's one of the secrets of life..
don't try to understand it.. coz u'll just feel empty doing so.
always have faith in others, and most importantly in ur self.. cos ur living for urself and not for others
always remember that god is above us.. and he's watching over us.. this is all just a big test.. we've got to pass it
if u need an ear.. u can count on me.. i'm all ears!

[orphen]

hi its me .. again .. i know that life must have some problems ,its extra bonus ..hehe but guys i'm not really enjoying this believe me i wanna be happy but every time i try to be there is this thing that screw it all up and when i feel happy for a moment i got the feeling that this happiness is turning into hell. one more tips about human THEY ARE NOT TRUST WORTHY believe me this is the truth please guys i've been their and i've suffered from this and i don't want what happend to me to happen to you .and i'm sorry but there are many things that bother me tonight but i can't talk about it right now so take care
Arrious Amegos

p.s : thanx for giving me the chance to talk freely